19!

We have hit the 19th week of pregnancy! Baby "Lenni" is growing and moving! I am slowly transitioning into maternity clothes now. Unfortunately, all of my old maternity clothes are way to big still, but my normal pants are not working. I have had to buy a few things, but luckily my local Ross has maternity clothes for practically nothing!

I really need to take a picture of the ol' belly, but i just keep forgetting. Poor little Lenni... already the second child with no pictures! (These pictures will most likely NOT be posted here.)

Jack will say "Hi!" to the baby and give my stomach a hug and kiss. He will only do it on my bare skin. He will lift up my shirt, say " Hi Baby!", give my stomach a big hug and kiss and than pull the shirt back down and say " Bye Baby!". He is really cute about it. It is a good thing he usually does it in the morning and never in public...yet! He definitely is a momma's boy, so bringing the actual baby home may be interesting. He is not very good about sharing his mom's attention.

We have a week and half before the big ultrasound reveal! Boy or girl? What will it be? People ask me all the time what i want. If we had another boy, Jack would have a little brother to play with. I have ALL the baby stuff that i would need, especially since both boys will be born in July. However, a little girl would be a great addition to the family and Jack would be a great big protective brother. SO, what do you think? Boy or girl?

Tonight

I am going out on a date with my husband tonight. It is MUCH needed. I can't remember a time when I needed to get out of the house, child free, as bad as I need to get out tonight.

I have even more holes in my walls. I also do not have a kitchen sink, a dishwasher or a stable counter top. I cook on a stove with 2 feet of workable counter tops. I get any water from the bathroom tap and wash dishes in the tub. It has been a full week with no end in sight.

I have had the clingiest, whiniest baby for the last week or so. He refuses Ryan. He refuses food. He only wants Mom. ALL.THE.TIME. If I leave the room for any random reason, a cryfest ensues... He may not be feeling well. He may know a new little baby is coming. This may just be a stage. It is a very draining stage.

I have had some news that has shaken me. It is too heartbreaking to talk about, really. It is maddening and sad all at the same time. It is not logical or correct. It has been a very hard week.

Did I mention that I am pregnant and emotional? Maybe I am carrying a girl. Seems to be a LOT of estrogen floating around here...

I am going on a date. I am fulfilling my craving for Dan Dan noodles. I am going to be without a clingy child. I am going to enjoy just being with my husband. I will not be doing any of the dishes.

It will be a good night.

Holes

There is a leak that caused mold in my kitchen. It is probably from our upstairs neighbors. The drywall and insulation is wet, but they can not find the source of the leak. I now have a large hole in my wall, one on my ceiling and a couple under my sink. AND my house smells of mold and mildew, which probably is not healthy for a pregnant lady and her 19 month old baby. Being an adult home owner is not so fun at times.

So, let's pray they find this mysterious leak, dry up the moisture and clean the mold and than give me brand new cupboards and counter tops...

Either way, I am painting my kitchen. What color should i paint it?

Friends

Sometimes you just want your friends with you when you are watching your favorite show.

15 weeks

Lenni is the size of a large navel orange right now. Little tiny fingers and toes are wiggling. Limbs are moving and kicking. I definitely look pregnant now. I am still wearing my regular clothes...barely. Four months is right around the corner...