My life is gone. I feel completely lost. My motivation is also at a loss. Ryan is in Baltimore this week for work, and i miss him. I am the one who is usually gone for a week or so at a time. It is much harder to be home than to be away. Oscar misses Ryan too. He will cry on the bed for a bit. Ryan will return tomorrow and things will be right again. Although, at this point, something else is missing that might change things.